As seasons come and go, I’ve often wondered if I am doing things right. It’s easy to get distracted and take your eyes off the path God has intended for you when things get tough. When these moments come, thoughts come flooding into my mind: “What am I doing with my life?”, “Wow, I should be doing what they’re doing”, “I should be there already”, “What If I fail?”. Isn’t it interesting that God has planned the perfect path for each of us as unique individuals, yet we still look around at what others are doing and envy them or try to be more like them?
I used to always do this; looking at other people’s lives around me for direction. I wasn’t happy, nor was I fulfilled. A huge turning point for me was when I gave up my track & field career to follow what God wanted for my life. Most of the people around me thought I was foolish; they didn’t understand how or see why anyone would ever do that. However, God asked me to step back and that is what I needed to do. My body was deteriorating, I was completely inundated by the track world, idealized figures of the glorified field were all too consuming, and more importantly God needed me for something else. God had plans for me to become married, to work at the church, to live a life I enjoyed, and for the first time in my life to feel a deep and long lasting joy. Even though I have come a long way, it still doesn’t mean I never look side to side at what other people think of me or what other people are doing, in fact I still struggle with this.
But I do know that You will never be satisfied living someone else’s life. You were created for your own life. You were created to live out your life as a living sacrifice to The Lord. In fact, God actually needs you to be you to carry out His purposes for your life. You create a unique ripple effect that no one else can make for you. You becoming that girl in your workplace or being that guy on stage isn’t going to accomplish what God has in store for YOU. You were made in His image, you were made perfectly, and He has a great plan for your life. Don’t second guess who God made you to be because God doesn’t make mistakes. NOW is the time to start living your life as God intended it.
Having this blind faith to walk forward in God’s calling for your life is scary and it may seem tempting to swerve off in a different direction, but doing God’s will is worth it. God’s plan for you is bigger, better, and more satisfying than that easy more appealing route! It just takes some retracing of your steps back to where you were to find that path again. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight” Proverbs 3:5-6
Sometimes seasons come and go, but God will always know the true desires of your heart. After being obedient to God’s call, not knowing why or how I would give up track & field (which felt like my whole world), I’ve now been given an open door to pursue track in a different way.
God requires us to be exactly who we are. I don’t want to be someone that looks back at their life and realizes they didn’t follow what God intended for them because they were too caught up in what seemed better or what other people were doing.
Let’s be a Jesus people that follows His will for our lives. Let’s wait on Him before we move in any direction. Let’s call on His name in times of confusion. Let us be bold enough to have blind faith.